I have no words.
Yesterday early afternoon I discovered something which could change my future forever, even if I hope that it won't really happen, I feel so bad since yesterday, I didn't sleep, I didn't eat, I even felt sick into the bathroom for what I read.
My boyfriend's family found very bad entries in my Italian blog and thought the worst possible things about me, obviously.
I admit that during the past autumn and winter I expressed doubts about my future near them, but simply because I know that we're quite different and I had the fear to ruin everything with my boyfriend because of it. I admit it, but I've never even thought such bad things, neither about my worst enemy!!
Fortunately my boyfriend, after a total day of silence from him and his family, sent me some examples of what he read with his family in some old entries of my Italian blog and, when I started with the first page, I immediately realized that not all the sentences came from myself, someone had surely access to my account and added a lot of hate.
I'm not able to vomit that kind of insults to anyone and lately I was also happier and happier to move, because I felt better with my future parents-in-law and thinking about my new life in Piedmont (I guess you too read this changement in my latest posts)!
Today I hope to have the chance to talk directly to my boyfriend and to his family, to tell them all the truth. I don't want to see 4+ years ruined because of someone else's mental disorder, I didn't write all that cr*p.
I want to move and go on, starting again my life with my boyfriend and mixing with his family, but I don't know if it'll be really possible, I hope they'll believe me and will give me a opportunity.
My boyfriend suggested me to leave for Belgium in any case, then we'll decide what to do with our relationship, but obviously I couldn't imagine to travel in this situation (I'm so sorry, Isolde).
I feel so bad now, please God listen to me!!
Yesterday early afternoon I discovered something which could change my future forever, even if I hope that it won't really happen, I feel so bad since yesterday, I didn't sleep, I didn't eat, I even felt sick into the bathroom for what I read.
My boyfriend's family found very bad entries in my Italian blog and thought the worst possible things about me, obviously.
I admit that during the past autumn and winter I expressed doubts about my future near them, but simply because I know that we're quite different and I had the fear to ruin everything with my boyfriend because of it. I admit it, but I've never even thought such bad things, neither about my worst enemy!!
Fortunately my boyfriend, after a total day of silence from him and his family, sent me some examples of what he read with his family in some old entries of my Italian blog and, when I started with the first page, I immediately realized that not all the sentences came from myself, someone had surely access to my account and added a lot of hate.
I'm not able to vomit that kind of insults to anyone and lately I was also happier and happier to move, because I felt better with my future parents-in-law and thinking about my new life in Piedmont (I guess you too read this changement in my latest posts)!
Today I hope to have the chance to talk directly to my boyfriend and to his family, to tell them all the truth. I don't want to see 4+ years ruined because of someone else's mental disorder, I didn't write all that cr*p.
I want to move and go on, starting again my life with my boyfriend and mixing with his family, but I don't know if it'll be really possible, I hope they'll believe me and will give me a opportunity.
My boyfriend suggested me to leave for Belgium in any case, then we'll decide what to do with our relationship, but obviously I couldn't imagine to travel in this situation (I'm so sorry, Isolde).
I feel so bad now, please God listen to me!!